Melissa

greebo_girlie @ 2006-08-16T23:50:00

2006-08-16T23:04:43Z

Today has been a weird day. Ive gone through all sorts of emotions..I know part of it is hormonal, but I do not know what my problem is otherwise. I keep welling up for stupid reasons, and all this trying to keep things together lark is not working.

Kay was in hospital last week, bit of a shocker. It was Nanas birthday, and I texted Kay to like say have you called her yet, I think shes waiting for you to....then I get a phonecall saying shes in hospital! Then she gets out, her problem still unknown after all the tests, and my grandad goes in! Christ. I get a phonecall at 1am, just dropped off to sleep...I hear the phone and all Im thinking is "God, I cant believe its morning, and I want a lie in and people just cant leave me in peace" then it hits me that its still dark, thats when I jump to the phone. Theres an unwritten rule in my family, you cant ring before 8 in the morning and after 10 at night. Its just unheard of - so I knew it was bad news. Nana told me she'd rang for the ambulance, and I just went into auto pilot struggling into my jeans and trying to calm her down. I stayed on the phone with her until the ambulance came, and she said shed ring back once she knew what was happening at the hospital. It turns out it wasnt a heart attack, but angina. Hes out now, but for one minute I thought "this is it". I felt physically sick, and all I could think of was what if I dont get to say goodbye.

AS and A Level results are out tomorrow...cant wait to know what people get. Im going to be so gutted for Joel if he doesnt get what he expected, and so happy for him if he does. Yet I know theres going to be this little part of me thats going "Im scared, dont leave me"...but you cant blame me for that, can you?
Tomorrow is going to be a tough day.
xx

greebo_girlie @ 2006-08-08T16:31:00

2006-08-08T15:32:13Z

I cant say sorry, I despise it when hes with her

Make It Electric

2006-08-08T12:11:46Z

I know its going back a bit but the picnic with the girls was dead nice. We went to Newstead Abbey, and forgot about the mile long treck from the entrance to the gardens haha. We took the pedestrian route which seemed like we were in the jungle but took us back out on to the road anyway. I used my Highway Code skills hahah which is always a plus! We settled down in some nice place, more secluded than when me and the boy went, but to be fair we just plonked ourselves down anywhere cause we were STARVING. We were plagued by silly wasps so we moved a few yards down and nothing bothered us! Strange. There was a cute little bunny near us all the time, he wasnt shy at all! I enjoyed being in the sun, and having a good gossip, and of course George's carrot cake!

Everyone was saying they were dying for a proper 12 year old sleepover; so I had one! I made a sign on the door that said "GIRLS ONLY - SLEEPOVER IN PROGRESS" hahah and pictures of us on it, hilarious. I fostered my teddies off with each girl, Naps for me (obviously), Chuckie Duckie for Nicola, Guy Jnr (haha!) for Rosie and Jazz for George ...just incase you were interested. I ordered in Pizza Hut..yum! and we melted so much chocolate and dunked marshmallows in. We watched Josie & The Pussycats which IS MINE AND I DIDNT BORROW IT OFF ANYONE! Just to point that out. Haha stayed up for ages, gossiping and reading magazines and listening to Girls Aloud, Grease and Dirty Dancing Soundtracks etc......

Its been nice seeing everyone alot lately, we've agreed to see each other more and this week should all be staying at Rosies and camping on her trampoline haha! We have Black Market to go to as well, cannot wait - ROD IS GOD. Seen Nic quite a bit, been into town and to mine for tarot readings, which have been scarily accurate. We've had late night chats on msn and on the phone till gone 12 (and thats only cause her battery ran out!). Same with Rosie, now she has her new phone and free texts we're speaking a lot more and I find myself ringing her randomly all the time. I enjoy work a lot more, we're more relaxed, in a bigger bar and with the extremes of weather (really sunny or monsoon rain) makes it more fun.

Where has this holiday gone? I planned to see people and still havnt got round to it; Niki, Amandeep, Holly, Liz etc....
Excited to get my results and sort out sixth form. But at the same time Im a bit wary of what I'll get, and the day I get them is when I go to Leeds...which I cant wait for, but that means its nearly end of holiday. Boo.

Yesterday I saw Joel..and he has his nipple pierced. I freaked out! I still cant get used to it! Part of me thinks its really cool, and it looks it, but then I think whaaaaaaaaaaaat and cringe!
We went into town for a bit and milled around, saw these girls and they were like "OMGZ THATZ JOEL" and I was like humph. Fuck off. Haha....Ive really got to stop being so jealous...
We had some nice food at Spoons and went back to mine for a bit. Later on, picked up Jodie and Ste and went to Ripley to see some bands. The bands were good, not amazing, but I enjoyed myself. I felt a bit shy at first, but Jodie is funny and pretty lovely. :)

Today I feel a bit motivated. Im fed up with moaning about the way I look, and not doing anything about it. So this morning I weighed myself (major freak out, ive put on a stone) and calculated my BMI (body mass index) which is apparently healthy for my weight and height. So Im not overweight..which I knew anyway, I just want to slim down, tone up, and feel better about myself. Ive started a food diary from today, basically because I know ill cut down on all the crap Im eating if I have to write it down and have started to calorie count. I have the exercise dvds ready, and my yoga kit...and should be going to the gym with Rosie when we can get ourselves in for an induction. I feel better already.

I like being busy :) x

EDIT: I keep having dreams about saying sorry to someone. I dont know if I even want to, but obviously my subconscious does, so I think I'll do it!

greebo_girlie @ 2006-08-01T23:36:00

2006-08-01T22:51:59Z

It would be nice to have more friends. Not that im not happy with the ones I have, I love them to pieces! I just feel a bit lonely sometimes when they are all off doing things and so on...

Its nice to have different people to talk to. But Im finding it hard lately to make new friends, haha lame. I just feel a bit wary of other people. To be honest, I dont really know what Im on about. I am tired though, and in need of a hug.

I swear to God I dont know what I would do if I didnt have them, and him.

Shes had the baby, its a girl....And I think she will call her Elodie. I dont like it that much, but someone will see the similarity between it and...

In a nutshell: I am addicted to playing Deal Or No Deal at the cinema and winning actual money, I enjoy devoting time to people I care about, Im fed up with disliking and not trusting people, I miss having financial security, I have made some ace plans lately, I cant wait to get my results, Alton Towers was so sexy and we had champagne and chocolates in our jacuzzi ..I was a bit sozzled and couldnt stop speaking posh, Im terrified of him going to uni and leaving me.

xx

greebo_girlie @ 2006-07-27T20:44:00

2006-07-27T20:33:20Z

Force & Styles has just come on my iTunes.

I miss my Hannah.

And Im missing a time where I should be there for her. I always imagined that Id be going to scans with her, buying the baby clothes, talking about names...We said Id be "Aunty Mel" since we were like sisters.

Joel says ring her. And whats stopping me? My pride? The fact I didnt get a goodbye when I sure as hell deserved one? How she knows what Im going through and wont pick up the phone? That I had to hear she was having a baby off someone else? That I dont even have a number to ring?

I dont think she realised how much she meant to me. People leave in my life; thats what they do. Maybe its the same in everyone elses, I dont know, I dont think so.

"It hurts to see you walk away
And Id like to ask you back to stay
To hold you in my arms just one more time

Another day has passed me by
A shattered dream, a distant cry
And a feeling that I lost my world to you

But I just cant justify your love..."

or

Three words: Field Of Dreams

Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you.

2006-07-20T11:51:30Z

What is with the weather today? I hope it brightens up...

So far, the holidays have been pretty good. I love waking up and knowing I dont have to bother with coursework, or revision, or general school! Although it feels weird waking up and no one being in. Needless to say I have felt lonely on a few occassions...But I have realised its okay not to be doing something every minute of the day. Im finding it hard to relax, my mind is all over the place. I planned to get back into my reading, but even reading one of my favourite books is taking me ages, because I cant concentrate.
The downside to having all this "me" time is that Im starting to think about what kind of a person I am - god that sounds lame I know. I think Im ready to let people in. I always wonder why people dont like me, as I think I can be a good friend, and I always say "If they knew me, if they gave me the chance" but then I dont let them in to do that. I am so bad for judging people when I dont want them to judge me. And I'll admit that! It only takes them a minute for them to make me feel small/uncomfortable and thats it. My tolerance levels have been 0 lately, as dad would say "Im only seeing things in black and white, not the bits in between" but actually, I dont think its necessarily a bad thing? Im sick of reading into things, thinking "oh maybe its like this, maybe they think that" why cant it be as simple as I like it or I dont, I like them or I dont.
I want to forget everything thats happened, but I cant. (And thats to do with a few things)

I want to start working out again, properly. Im so fed up with the way I look, I ~~want~~ need to change it. Thinking of joining fitness first as me and Oasis dont seem to be getting on, and I think I have some gym buddies already - including Cory! Haha! I just need to motivate myself into doing it, instead of just moping about it.

---

The other day I saw Rooey :) and he puts a smile on my face. Did I mention he was coming to Brunts next year? He was saying he hopes we're in the same tutor, I never even thought about that! How ace will that be.
Whenever I see him, he reminds me of "the good old days". He takes me back to my best school year, where all of us were together: Me, Lauren, Hannah, Bryony, Lucia, Kate, Rosie, George, Philippa...Not to mention the guys! And then at breaks Id join with Sian, Joe, Tom, Courtney, Frankie and everyone else that used to come. And when Jo Whitt had an inset day Guy and Roo and Sean etc would sneak in! Me and Liz would stay after school to catch the bus to Brunts to have our guitar lesson, where we would learn Nirvana, Blink 182, Offspring, Sum41. Its like that year we did no work, we just had 100% fun.
And then I think of us a year later, hanging out at my place, watching music TV, going on that silly park down the end of my street, and it reminds me of when I first met Joel.

The Mill was fun the other day. You'll have to excuse me, every day is "the other day" because Ive lost all track of the days whatsoever. But Redlemons, Memoria and SOS played if that helps. I sat outside with my girls in the sun and had a catch up...Rosie and Nic stayed at mine afterward, and we got in at like 12 because we got a lift with Joel Evans and had to take my Joel (see that Nic?) and Adam to some party in Blidworth, and it took us ages to find it! But I didnt mind at all, it was hilarious, if not really scary! There wasnt enough room to fit us all in so I was sat on Joels knee, and driving through "country" roads in the dark, talking about The Hills Have Eyes, and nearly running over possums and Joel Evans having a crisis was terrifying! But funny!
So glad Rosie and Nic stayed over, we had a gossip and a laugh and a talk, you know how it is...which as Nic puts is was well overdue. The next day we had lunch on my gorgeous patio furniture in the sunshine, and got ready to go to Rufford park with the Joels and Adam and Liz. It was really nice just walking around feeding the duckies!

I had my first "shift" at Stags again last night. But I thought you left? I hear you cry. Alas, I decided to stay at least until I can get a "proper" job, its easy money, and actually....not that bad at all. It went really well, Dave was in a good mood, and even had a little joke with him and HE SMILED. Goodness. It was busy, but not too busy: just steady. The customers were nice, and we didnt get hardly any moaning about the prices going up! Speaking of prices, my mental maths has gone down the drain, and them going up confused me as I have to memorize them all again. But we both handled it really well. Aaron came to see us, he has his tongue pierced now which looks uber weird and makes me squirm; it is massive! I had a smile on my face all the time. The only downside was I was soooooooo hot like you wouldnt believe, but I didnt mind it too much.

I have seen Joel so much lately. And its great, really great, so so so great. But I dont want to fall into the trap, I dont want us to be in each others pockets all the time. I dont want him to get fed up of me. But I dont want to be alone.
Alton Towers next week, and Im so excited! :D

I have all the time in the world on my hands..So if anyone wants to do something just let me know!
xx

greebo_girlie @ 2006-07-14T16:45:00

2006-07-14T15:46:45Z

I feel so down right now, I could eat a whole loaf of bread.
Seriously. Me? Carbs? Endorphins?

greebo_girlie @ 2006-07-13T13:18:00

2006-07-13T12:20:41Z

Would you give 67p a year to fight malaria, TB and HIV/AIDS?

http://www.unicef.org.uk/campaigns/global_fund/

Join the campaign.

greebo_girlie @ 2006-07-09T16:19:00

2006-07-09T16:00:35Z

Write 15 Statements about people you know without saying who each statement is aimed at. They can be anything that you would wish to say to that person, anything you wish you would/could have said or anything that you daren't say.

1) I think you are one of the coolest people on the planet! I love how close we are, and hopefully always will be. You are one of my most favourite people and I love you! I know you'll always be there for me, and we have so many fun times to come this summer! I could write loads about you.

2) I'll always wonder why we go through phases and never speak, but then when we do we're so close! I feel like I've known you forever, but I'll always hold back just that little bit. I know you think of me of the "one that got away", that you feel youve missed out on "snatching me up" but I know there was a big fat reason for that. I cant wait to see you again, but I hope you dont get the wrong idea. You were one of my first real crushes.

3) This lady is so fantastic. I love you so much! Although I havn't known you too long, I feel closer to you than pretty much any of my other friends, with exceptions! You'll know who you are when I say "IKTU!" and if you could see my pose, youd LOL. You're one of the loveliest people Ive ever met, and you deserve the best in everything. Star.

4) Ive started to feel really nervous around you. You blow hot and cold with me, and I dont really know where I stand. Argh?

5) I miss you being my best friend, sharing our lunches with each other, you always unwrapping my lollipops cause I could never do them..and just generally hanging out. You dont even read this, but I have to mention you. You introduced me to a boy, when all I really wanted was you. I hope we get close again in sixth form. My little studmuffin.

6) I love you! You are so lovely, and funny. I love how I can have a proper conversation with you, and you get my sort-of-jokes! Youve wrote about me on youre little thingy, and youll know its you when I say I wish we were in the same year, as I know we would have been best friends! Even though I hardly see you, I still class you as one of my close friends, and think you're ever so cool.

7) You annoy me. Tons. Boring and predictable anybody?

8) You seem to have no opinion for yourself, just follow the others, and anything that does come out of your mouth is not worth hearing! I have loads of stuff to say about you but I wont waste my words - just that you didnt know a good friend when you had one. You will continue to go through life with crap boyfriends, and crap taste.

9) I think that you are such a nubba, but I love you so so so much. No one else gets me quite like you do. You have been there for me when others would have turned and ran. I dont think you know how much you mean to me. You are one of the funniest people I know, guaranteed to cheer me up. I think you could get away with murder. I could practically write a book about what we've been through together! Im sorry for when Im such a pain, and I get jealous and worried. I can see myself spending forever with you, and thats a good thing.
(Not obvious, ey?)

10) For some reason you repulse me. I hate it when you're name is mentioned. I used to be a bit jealous of you, but now I see youre not that cool. I always felt two inches tall when I was with you. I have my reasons for disliking you, but now Id prefer to just ignore the fact you exist.

11) I wish I saw you more. Being invited to your 21st made my day. I remember when you moved to uni and said I could always visit and stay over - I might take you up on that offer. I think the boy is a bit wary of you, which I think is cute as I see you more as a big bro than competition for him!

12) You live like millions of miles away, but I'll always talk to you. I think you value our friendship more than the ones you have where you live. I wish you all the happiness in the world, you deserve it.

13) Everyone laughs at you, but I dont think youre that bad?

14) You think the world revolves around you, and you play the guilt card when you shouldnt. I cant imagine what youre going through, and I do feel for you...but at the end of the day you need a good slap!

15) Whenever I see you, I cant stop grinning! I know you like me better than Joel, haha! I think your girlfriend is quite lovely, just like you! You said you would take me out for a drink, and you better. I cant stop wanting to hug you! We've been through quite a bit - all good! - and I fancied you for ages!

greebo_girlie @ 2006-07-08T20:57:00

2006-07-08T20:00:11Z

IM BACK! I have so much to write about but wont bother now.

Just gonna say I have the best friend ever, shes been so fantastic.
He is so right for me, I never want to be with anyone else and I dont care how that sounds!

Nicolaaaaaaa cant wait to speak to you!
xx

greebo_girlie @ 2006-06-16T23:50:00

2006-06-16T22:55:14Z

Today is last day of exams!
Seriously, I feel so relieved. On the whole, they haven't gone as bad as I thought they would..I think I've done fine :)
Now I can finally let my hair down. Ive been waiting ages for this!

Went into town and bought lots of pretty things with mum. Had a chinese and watched BB. Texted my boy :) Mmmmmmmmmmm!

Going to meadowhall tomorrow, then going to Notts to TGI's with mum, Rosie and Sue and then we'll watch a film at the cornerhouse! Rosie will stay at mine, and we'll have a big girly chat, and get all giggly about how good summer will be!

Im on about going "down town" as the kids call in on thursday night. Holly, Liz, anyone up for it maybe? Got a few people going already...

I have a new livejournal, which I plan to keep friends only. Its going to be brutally honest, just a proper "me" journal.
I want a layout thats really "grown up" and modern. I need help, as I'm rubbish at all this html overrides stuff. I did try but the words dont seem to be going in the right places, if that makes sense.
Help?

xx

greebo_girlie @ 2006-06-08T10:36:00

2006-06-08T09:41:31Z

I love Jimmy Eat World. They remind me of last summer, Milton Keynes..Rock City, Rosie, Cory, Shaun, Scream! Sunshine!

Im in a really happy mood today, feel so nostalgic - in a good way.
I love how things used to be. But I love how things are now even more.

Lets get this done with so I can enjoy my summer!
:D

Human Trafficking

2006-05-28T23:34:38Z

Tonight I sent an email to my MP asking him to support me in the campaign to urge the Government to sign up to the new European Convention on Action Against Trafficking in Human Beings.

It only really takes a minute, you can select the MP the quickest by your constituency (that was the way I did it), and for Mansfield is Mr Alan ~~Beale~~ Meale.

The email already has a template with the main point, but you can also type in anything personal!

Please email, or even write, I dont ask for much? Haha.

http://www.unicef.org.uk/campaigns/take_action/email_fax_your_mp/index.asp?action=24

Thanks :) xx [[ P.S message me if you do it?]]

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-28T13:56:00

2006-05-28T13:08:56Z

Today I am wearing trackies for the first time since year 10. At least. And that was only because I had PE! I realise that I look very stupid, but I feel too fat to wear jeans. I feel like crap, Im all emotional, and mardy but at least I feel 1% more comfy than before.

Friday was....different. I dont want to go into it but I was glad I was there for him.

Yesterday was amazing.

Hellogoodbye, The Hush Sound, Capdown, Hundred Reasons, Thursday, The Academy Is..., and Fall Out Boy!

Hellogoodbye actually played a full set, there was no technical hitches, and they didnt get anything thrown at them! This means a happy HelloGoodbye playing reallllllllllly good, and looking very geek chic!:P Haha Cute.
The Hush Sound were awesome, way better than I expected. The harmonies were fantastic, and just everyone seemed to be able to play their instruments. One of the singers (girl I might add) voice was just beautiful!
Capdown were great along with Thursday!
Hundread Reasons were a tiny bit poo...but I wasnt too bothered.
Fall Out Boy were simply fabulous! Goodness. Played pretty much all my favourites aswell, and just generally had a great time.

As you've noticed I've been a bit brief, but Ill no doubt update in more detail soon. :)
x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-25T11:01:00

2006-05-25T10:04:06Z

I never know what youre thinking anymore. I never know what to say.

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-24T15:42:00

2006-05-24T14:49:58Z

Argh. Such a bad mood.

Its these exams...I just can't do it. I hate the fact I have to stay in and revise, when all I want to do is go out and forget about them.
People are really starting to do my head in. They probably know this, but dont do anything about it.

Some things lately have made me feel really happy. Like the fact I'm seeing Rosie more, and I can just have a great big moan and she puts up with it and understand. My really long emails to and from Nic, pretty much save me from insanity. Joel, and the fact he can manage to calm me down really easily, and everything else fantastic he does. And not being worried whether me and Ste have fallen out.

I have so many things to look forward to. I know I have the people I need. And that I dont need the others to have a good time.

I really need a hug right now.
x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-20T19:41:00

2006-05-20T18:42:58Z

NEXT YEAR IS GONNA BE THE BEST EVER!:D

Rooey & Melsy...reunited at last.
Hahahaha

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-20T13:33:00

2006-05-20T12:33:30Z

Got this from Peter..

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greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-12T15:57:00

2006-05-12T15:05:00Z

Wednesday was awesome. Did my oral exam which actually went well, I seem to have had the easiest oral (out of Higher tier anyway) woooooop, and did fine on my presentation. Let myself a bit down on the general conversation but it was nothing major!

Afterwards the Joel super amazing boyfriend took me to Rufford Park to feed the duckies! The weather was soooooo nice! Saw four little baby ducklings trying to follow their mummy around and it was dead cute. I got chased by geese, and ate half the loaf myself! Carb addict!:P

Thursday got even better! I took the morning off as there was no need to go to French after the day before, and Graphics is naff sooo! Went in for English, Strawther wasn't there HURRAH so went in Miss Evans' class which was pretty damn good. Had lunch on Car Bank with Rosie, George, Nellie and Bryony which was dead nice. Did a bitta sunbathing you know how it is. Me and Rosie couldnt be arsed with the afternoon so we skipped back home to mine where we changed into bikinis and sunbathed on my back garden! I took out some revision notes to try and talk myself into it but didnt really get too far! Had the iPod speakers on aswell: Heaven. Big shades: sexy.

Today I felt really ill. Went to school and did 3 revision classes, one which was out in the sun! Burnt one arm a bit, but you cant really tell now. Came home and felt so weak, and collapsed on the bed. Mum thinks I might have heat stroke which sounds a bit silly but she's probably right. Think I'm just doing too much.

Going to have a shower then get ready for bed. Relax for once.
x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-06T18:19:00

2006-05-06T17:20:08Z

There are three dvd's I realllllllly want right now

- Pleasantville
- Hocus Pocus
- The Craft

Someone buy them me? Or even just one? :( Theyre only £6 each off play.com
*puppy dog eyes*
x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-06T11:27:00

2006-05-06T10:36:01Z

Sorry about the sizing, I cant be bothered!

Mrs Weir's Photos:

BARRYYY!

greebo_girlie @ 2006-05-04T17:33:00

2006-05-04T16:36:23Z

Prom was dead good. I love dancing on the platform/stage thing with my best girl. I like knowing the words to the dance songs, and the way I feel like I can dance better under strobe lighting!

I love the jaw dropped face my boy does when he sees me in my dress. I love it when he goes "wow".

...

Got more pics, and so much more to tell: later!
On another note, feeling pretty sad lately...

x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-04-16T14:25:00

2006-04-16T13:27:32Z

I wish I was spontaneous.
I wish I didn't feel small infront of certain people.
I wish I wasn't so boring.
Yet I'm only boring because of these stupid exams.
Which I seem to go on about all of the time.
I wish people didn't get disappointed in me.
I wish I could please everyone.

greebo_girlie @ 2006-04-15T12:35:00

2006-04-15T11:41:32Z

Work today....Really don't want to go in, generally can't be arsed. But on the otherhand, I have two more matches untill the season finishes, and I could really do with the money...
I wonder if I get paid extra since its Easter weekend? Or maybe its only the Friday and the Sunday.

First of all I have the birthdays -

George - I think I know what I'm getting her!
Ro - Pretty much know what I'm getting
Slaney - Know what I'm getting (thank god!)
Benjimjam - A card? Hm?
Joels 18th - Erm literally NO IDEA?

I'm so worried about Joel's. I really can't think of anything. And I feel like this year has to be special because its his 18th. And I need to beat what I've done in previous years. My ideas are either too small, too big, I've already done/got it him before, he'll get it himself, he won't like it....

I need to pay Rosie for my Leeds tickets too. *Sigh* I don't know where all this is coming from.
Must dash. x

greebo_girlie @ 2006-04-07T20:09:00

2006-04-07T19:19:11Z

I feel like this entry will be a bit scattered..

Today was a good day :)
I never seem to have okay days anymore...theyre either good or bad. I think thats how I'm seeing a lot of things at the minute, in black and white.

Tonight is reallllllly boring :( its the first time I've been in the house alone for ages. Feels a bit weird! But I've had the music on loud, been writing my lists, and trying to tidy my room.

GOT MY LEEDS TICKETS! Cannot seem to express how happy I am over this, I just get all giggly and excited! The summer will be the best ever. I just know it.
Can't believe it's Easter already, and that when I get back to school I have a week-and-a-bit of normal school, and then its "study leave". Which isn't really study leave as the timetable is still up. I'm already seeing a lot of problems with it already, but hey ho.
In alot of ways, I am so so so looking forward to getting the exams over and done with, but then a part of me is a bit nervous.

I can feel a shift in "the group" again. I don't really know if its just me, but there you go. I love Ro. I can feel myself getting annoyed with people.

I want a girly night, and to stay up talking till the early hours. :)
xx